Thursday, 23 August 2012

The Girl on the Shelf


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The Bible, it is a life, living and breathing book filed with wisdom. It is sharper than a double-edged sword dividing the soul from the spirit and the bone from the marrow. It is a driving force. It is God.
You may ask, “What is she driving at?” Well I will tell you. Most times when believer read, study and meditate on this word, they interpret its provisions, giving it their own meaning. Worse still, they read it like a literary text thinking wrongly that its text does not apply to this present dispensation. This is just not right. For God’s sake, it should be read under the Gaurdianship of the Holy Spirit. It is meant to be read placing yourself into that story, into those characters, bringing these same stories into this dispensation. What do I mean? Here is what I am talking about:
Mary the adultress. Yes yes, I know her life was not right. But let me say this. She was introduced to this life at a tender age and having learnt no other skills to survive on, she continued. Yes, she knew the reparations but her instincts for self-preservation over-ruled every moral tendency she had so she continued. She came to realise that this was the fastest way to survive and also and also the fastest way to self-destruction. She continued. Yes! She did not like her job. Every man who came her took from her leaving her empty. She had neither joy nor peace. No one to hold her hand. No one to regard her enough to say “Mary dear, I love you a little” – let alone “I love you much”. She was so empty that she began to wish a different life for herself. I can imagine her lying numb with her arms wrapped around her staring at her sleeping lover with so much hurt and bitterness in her heart.
Now the world in which she live in was a man’s world. She had no skill to survive on hence she was at the mercy of those men who ruled this world. The women, on the other hand, did not help matters. They kept their distance from her for she was a persona non grata. They back stabbed, scorned and mocked her and all but still wondered why she walked with he head held up high. None knew how much she wanted to cry out at the injustice of it all, hence she died slowly every day . In her subconscious lay the knowledge of her death for she dared not hope that she would grow old like every other woman with her children round her. And so she continued . In order not to feel sorry for herself, she decided to seek pleasures in material things. At the South-west corner lay an earthen bound chest  wherein lies all the treasures she had. In that chest lay gold, silver and stones. But what she held so dear to her was a small alabaster box. She knew the price she paid just to get this box and the value of the sweet smelling oil, so she guarded it diligently. In spite of this she continued.
It got to a head one day. She was caught in the very act of adultery and dragged out of her tent. She looked at the faces of these men who had come to take her to her death and saw so many she had given herself to including the very man whom she had just slept with. She was neither allowed to get dressed nor defend herself. She was dragged out like criminal and upon looking at the faces of her accusers, she saw contempt and a sick pleasure at her decided fate. She shuddered  looking at their hands, she died seven times before natural death from what she saw. Silently she walked on with a look of defiance. With her eyes she dared the women passed her by with bowed heads to look at her in accusation. While walking, she remembered her treasures and the one thing that she held dear to her, the alabaster box. A fresh wave of pain hit her again and she started crying. She did not know where they were taking her to but she knew that they were going to see a man named Jesus. Still on they went...

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...They met Him at the temple and set her before Him. She could not raise her face to see who her Judge was and so she bowed her head in shame. The judge asked what her offence was and was told. Then silence. For every level of silence attained, she reached a new level of fear. So great was her fear that she felt pain- for the pain of silence was greater than the pain of death. But something strange was going on around her. She did not understand the silence. Peeping through her lashes, she saw the Judge kneeling and writing on the floor. “Now this is strange”, she thought, beginning to entertain a little hope that she would live . Again they demanded His Answer. This time her heart was still until He said: “He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.”
Her body revolted for an express order has been made: “...cast a stone at her.” She stilled, waiting for the impact of the first stone. While waiting she dared not hope for mercy. Her life flashed before her in quick succession but still she waited. In her fear laden brain, she did not understand this order until she dared to look at her accusers. What she saw amazed her and actually gave her the miracle to turn around and look at her accusers. Lo and behold, they were gone and turning back to look at the judge, He was stooped down writing. She kept quiet for she felt that she would be foolish to demand mercy from this Man.
Jesus stood and turned to look at this maiden before Him and what He saw reminded Him of His mission on earth. He knew that the very act she was accused of was not originally hers but her main accuser who is the devil, so He released her but with an admonition that she should, “Go and sin no more.”
 As for the maiden while she was waiting for her Judge, she was curious and weary as to what He wanted from her. She prayed within her that His Price would not be too high for her to pay, she saw no reason why should be allowed to live. But He did her set her free and while going she turned to look at Him for she could not believe what had just happened. He stood there and watched her leave feeling the pain of the PRICE HE HAD TO PAY to get this one soul to HIS SIDE...
So she left. The very man who accused her before this Judge were nowhere to be found. The women who felt she deserved her fate were amazed to see her walking down the streets. As for her, her shame grew for every step she took  not for the fact that she was half-naked but for the fact that she had seen how wicked her ways were through the eyes of her Judge. There and then she decided that not only will she seek this Man, he will dedicate her life to Him.
Church for every situation/ challenge(s) you are passing through someone somewhere has gone through it or even worse. So church while reading this Holy Book let His Spirit reveal His Words to you for they are , “...Sharper than a double-edged sword, dividing to the asunder.”
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“Eheh! Do you know Jadhiel- that girl in Main Hostel?”, asked Girl A. Which girl? Questioned Girl B. “That girl now that passed with that pink top that I showed you the other day.” answered Girl A. ‘Ok, ok! Now I remember-‘ , she said nodding her head rigorously. “What happened to her?” she asked. “She’s married!!”, says Girl A with smiles on her face. “Married!!, but how?” asked girl B. I do not know so but I heard she got married last month” says Girl A. ‘Hhmmm! She’s lucky’...
Take a pause, that was a conversation I overheard going on between these two girls. Now lets hear dialogue II:
‘Joy! Joy!! Joy!!!’, Ada called. ‘Eh!’ Joy stopped, then turned to seek her caller. Ada runs to meet Joy.  They start to gist until  Joy surprises Ada with a flash of her wedding ring.
Ada:    You didn’t tell me.
Joy:     I wanted surprise you.
Ada:    (Unbelief on her face) When did this happen?
Joy:     Last month
Ada:    Is it that same guy?
Joy:     No (she sighs) It is a long story. Do not worry. When you come I will gist you and show you pictures.
Ada was so excited that she started holding Joy down. After much pleas from Joy, Ada goes
Promising to see her later.
(This second dialogue is between two certain ladies.)
From these dialogues, we should kindly explain some facts to me; Why is it that most single ladies, most believers seek to do one of these three things:
a.       Get married early or;
b.      Enjoy life or;
c.       Make money.
Then why is it that most single ladies who are believers, seek to do one of these two things:
a.       Either get married early or;
b.      Make money
And finally, what about our guys? They do not want one thing in common and which is to make money.
But before you start, do not get me wrong here- I am not against anymore getting married early neither am I against anymore making money or living a good life. But my point is this, I am against this misconception that as a female what I am called to do in this life is to get married or make money. No! What I have read in the Bible is that I am to serve God in the days of my being single for If I seek Him early I will find Him. Serving Him now means that my walk with Him should be deep for when I get married my very first ministry would be to my family.
So tell me, If I do not seek Him now, is it when I occupy my time with my husband, kids and job that I can get to know Him? The answer is NO.
Again, we have been given the Great Commission to preach the gospel and win souls. Tell me if I don’t do it now, when do I get to do it? Is it when I have a suckling child that I will have such time to think about evangelism? No again.
My point here is this, if and when I am called to move, I should have no burden no weight if a husband, wife, job or even a child. I should have more because I am healthy, strong and vibrant and not because I am married, old or busy making money. For in seeking His Kingdom (this early) and His righteousness all these things would be added unto me.
Yes I am happy for all those who are married plus those who seek to get married early. But for us yet unmarried, let us get to worship God, serving Him in our prime for when we are old, weak or tired. He will still be with us till the end of time. Also, we know that we have need of these very things...

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I scheduled to fast today and noticed that I was struggling. Fine, I had my morning devotion and everything but you know what, I just could not fast. I will tell why...
On some days I do not get to eat till its so late in the day. Not because of lack of money(yeah that’s the case in some occasions) but because I am too busy to notice food or I am on a deliberate diet. I thought today being a special a special day would be one of those days I will bear not to eat even for a few hours just to pray. It seemed not to be so, for the devil had some plans for me.
First and foremost it started like this: my roommates talked about going to buy okpa or moi-moi, whichever one that is within reach. I felt I was safe why? I detest okpa and moi-moi is not really my thing. They bought it, came in and started to eat. I noticed I was seriously salivating after after their food (especially the okpa. Imagine!) My nostrils and my taste buds sprang to life and my stomach reacts violently when I perceived the aroma from their food. I swallowed. It took me the whole of my self control and will power to reject the invitation extended to me.
Feeling uncomfortable, I stood up suddenly and began searching for something. From under my bed, I grabbed my empty bucket, marched straight to the tap, piled my bucket and decided to wait in line for my turn. It was just remaining three buckets before me when I started noticing some things.
“Sister. Sister please I want to clint.” That was the plea from girl A, she was allowed to fetch. Girl B came and left with a bucket of water, C came and was given half bucket. Girl Dnot only fetched half a bucket of water but also added a keg to it. Finally it was remaining a bucket before me when a girl came, spoke to the owner of the bucket, had her consent to pile, then piled two more buckets with her.
Christ!! It was as if someone gave me a hot slap. I mean in my very presence these girls were misbehaving. I wanted to say something but a thought came, “What if someone is watching.” That alone weakened me. I kept quiet and began to meditate when I remembered. “If possible as much as lie in you live peaceably with all men.”
But you know what, people around me began to look at me like a fool and the girl after me began to grumble, still I said and did nothing. When it finally came to fetch, I fetched then left.
Nothing much happened in my room except that I was still struggling with food. No longer able to bear the hunger pangs anymore I stood up and left the room in search of food. On my way to the cafeteria , I saw with my very eyes, days I had gone on without food. I stopped in my tracks: In front of one was the cafeteria behind me was the hostel. The push to move forward was great while the push to go back was less. Unconsciously, I sat down and began to cry . I started talking with my creator within me, “ God you know I have the crave for food right now and far from the fact that I have not eaten, I am shaking...to even pray I can not. God help me.” No one could have known that I was arguing because I just could not eat.
A sort of peace and joy overwhelmed me and gave me a boost of energy. I stood up, ran back to my hostel and began to hear thoughts going through me. “The joy of the Lord is my strength. They that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles. THEY SHALL RUN AND NOT BE WEARY, AND SHALL WALK AND NOT FAINT.”
Anyway, to cut the long story short, I realised something. Not only should we fast and pray without ceasing, we should be on the guard for the devil, our adversary, is prowling like a lion seeking whom to devour. Do not be caught up at your weakest moment . Always be on guard.
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When I tell people that I love the very act of worship above prayer, most do not understand. Either they see me as a prayerless Christian or they think I am just talking about worship as in “Sunday Worship.” What I am talking about is not that I do not pray or that prayer to me is useless...no no, it is not. In fact I love it. But I feel that when I pray, I go through many channels as opposed to worship where I just feel His presence. Well I still doubt you will ever understand worship in its beauty and glory until you experience it.
I started like this:
I entered His gates with thanksgiving in my heart and His courts with praise using scriptural songs as I have been taught and I was led up in the spirit. While there, He released so many things to me of which I am not worthy and allowed to repeat. You know, you might think you know everything about yourself until you encounter God. It was not funny being told things that I did not know were in my subconscious and unconscious levels of my mind. Or is it the things that shocked me as He spoke. Anyway, He spoke to me like a father would to his child and in some cases, a tutor to his students.
During our discussion when I felt we have run out of topics to discuss, a new song burst forth from within and out of me. While singing, His Word which is the two-edged sword, We spoke for so long that when we were through, I left His presence with a light head, a lifted heart and a formidable spirit. I had joy within me that I had just entertained and I wrote down in my journal all He said to me. To be frank with you, I left my former level to a higher level in His Presence.
Seriously, I do not think I will be able to properly explain this beautiful art to you till you experience it. To achieve this you must open yourself to Him, worshipping Him in truth and in spirit for the Father seeks such to worship Him. Having been through this, the rest of the day was perfect.

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